I know that eventually I will adjust. But when will the 'eventually' happen? After 6 months? After a year? After 2 years? Maybe I am the only one who can determine that. I am the only one who can give it all up and surrender to God, to allow him to aid me through this time. It is a daily struggle to give up all that I have known and completely surrender.
I have been reading the book of Matthew over the last few weeks. I think how hard it must have been for the disciples to leave everything and follow Christ.
The disciples, not just the 12, literally dropped everything to follow Jesus. They left their homes, their families, their comfort. They left it all for the sake of following Christ.
I wonder if they went through culture shock. Did different smells bother them? How about the different food? Did they allow the little things in life to bother them? Or were they so focused on Jesus that those little details weren't a bother?
I am encouraged by the disciples. Even in their weakest God used them. I can only pray that God will use me in my weakest also.
I know that this time will pass. Daily I make the decision to stay on this journey with God. Daily I trust in him. Daily I fail. And daily I live in his unfailing grace.
Please pray for me. That the Spirit will guide me and give me strength.
Love and Peace.
-Caidy
PS. Ronald is doing great! He is a wonderful, patient man. I am blessed to have such a great supporter. I love him.
